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Friday, 25 December 2009
LAST POST OF 2009!!! I GOT OVER YOU... Christmas eve, i decided to move on and also taking actions. i deleted ur msgs. and not gonna care about how ur life is anymore. almost cry during caroling cos of it but james was encouraging me to let go. and i did!!! yay! God must be proud:) 2009 wasnt the best year i could have. faced probs like: almost retaining in sec3 BGR breaking up unwantedness and loneliness friendship problems mood swings( hell alot of them hahah) jealousy over position hateful teachers failing practically all subs self cutting bad habits that wont go away. well the list goes on and on. alot of this situations that made me cry. but more importantly, it made me stronger. and made me depend on God more. so thank God for that.:) Thank you God for carrying me through each and every situation i faced. you let me cry on ur shoulders when i needed one you gave me hugs to make me feel better. you gave me hope when all hope to me was fading away. "i can do all things in you who gives me strength" "for i have plans for you, plans to prosper to not to harm you,plans for a brighter future" these 2 verse have helped me through 2009 of course, there are also many ppl who helped me. so many ppl that i cant count. blessed to have you guys. you know who u are. ha. and also, i have forged a much stronger bond with the church guys. they are awesome!!! heh many ppl walk in and out of our lives, but friends leave footprints behind! i will post the photos of london and musical soon... probably in 2010.LOL 2010 resolution: 1) 1 year plan, to be completely satisfied with God and not date. (given by joanne. she gave me 6months but i decided 1 year would be better:P accept this challenge.God, joanne, you readers are my witness ar. ha) 2) use computer only 3times a week and not more than 5hours per time. (probably one of the hardest resolution to keep to for me cos im a computer addict. but since 2010 is my O level year. so gotta cut down com use) 3) focusing on my Olevel goal of 9points. yes yes some of you may think 9 points easy or 9 points for me is a target too high for me. but hey, dont forget. i have a mighty God supporting me. and every paper is done with a prayer. 4) DSA. gotta prepare my dance audition and interview. i feel damn scared. but if i dont try, my life will be filled with WHAT IF... 5) praying that 2010 will be a revival year for our church. may all of us walk closer and grow stronger in God. pray for healing and forgiveness in each and everyone of our hearts. 6) im gonna fast again. haha. dont be surprise if i am not eating food during recess. most probably gonna read the bible at a corner of the school. 7) kicking that bad habit that have stayed with me since sec 1 end of year. that habit destroyed 2 of my friendships with my friends. its no longer gonna control my life anymore. Jesus take the wheel! 8) be a good welfare IC. and also serve in church and cell group. 30may youth serivce, OMG in chinese and leading congregation with yonghui. waa, i damn scared. but God shows his strength through our weakness. so God make full use of me to touch others:) for now thats about it... 2010 is gonna be a very Godly year for me, i wanna grow stronger in him. be more wiser and mature. to be submissive and God fearing. yea sounds like a difficult task for me. LOL. nevertheless, im gonna try.:) k, ending here. gotta pack luggage.(why am i saying all this) LOL tata Tuesday, 22 December 2009 Turn down the lights Turn down the bed Turn down these voices inside my head Lay down with me, tell me no lies Just hold me close, don't patronize Don't patronize me. Cause I can't make you love me if you don't You can't make your heart feel something it won't Here in the dark, in these final hours I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power But you won't, no you won't Cause I can't make you love me if you don't. I'll close my eyes, then I won't see The love you don't feel when you're holdin me Mornin will come and I'll do what's right Just give me till then to give up this fight And I will give up this fight. Cause I can't make you love me if you don't You can't make your heart feel something it won't Here in the dark, in these final hours I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power But you won't, no you won't Cause I can't make you love me if you don't. did u actually love me? guess the answer doesnt matter anymore Tuesday, 15 December 2009 your the reason that i live, the reason that i sing... i am pleasantly reminded that life is just not about love or relationships. it is too shallow of a life to just live for your partner. when your in a relationship, every single thing seem to surround the person you love. from what i had learnt, every time i cry is always cos of you, and im always on a roller coaster ride with you and your emotions. i do not live for you, i do not sing for you, and i do not cry for you. no one else is allowed to break my heart except for God. and thats a fact. truely, all of us deserve more than what our partner can give us now. now meaning teenagers la! hah from this day onwards, i commit my life again back to God. im so thankful, this wonderful Father never ever forget to forgive me. and you know what, he is my lover! and my boyfriend, my father, my listening ear, my comforter, my advicer, and everything else... i dont need anything else other than God's love to surround me. so i make this really clear to everyone else now, I KISS DATING GOODBYE!muax away:) learnt that when ur not in good terms with God, your never in good terms with anyone else. and everything you do, most probably screw up. so im gonna fast again. til i make right with God and gain internal strength to clear my temptations 'that blocks me from getting closer to God. oh, to the special someone, i hope you are doing fine without me. you find someone else, i pretty sure about that. its best this way for both of us. you need ur old life back and i need mine too. thank you for all the bittersweet memories, experience and feelings i never thought i had. i hope we will still remain friends though its ur choice and i wont force you. wish u all the best in O's, NCC, and finding someone better:) til you find the right person, may God's love fill your heart. honestly God is the only one who can fill up the loniness feeling in our heart.i shall end here, gonna miss you.:( to a girl a kiss speak a thousand words, it tells of the guys character. but to a guy, its just a kiss... Saturday, 12 December 2009 perhaps im not being fair to you by clinging on to you, still thinking that ur mine. gotta let go for ur sake and mine. this time, i hope it truely means goodbye... Thursday, 10 December 2009 i fell so hard i thought i couldn't stand no more always thinking this time round things would be difference. i convinced myself to believe in that. yet i got played another time. guess i never learnt the lesson. i deserve far more than the way u treat me. since u didn't fulfil ur promise to me, i wont fulfil ur promise either. u never respected me. just because u know my secrets and know my weakness, doesn't give you the right to use it against me. i dont know whether to give u another chance. i dont know whether i should give up. i dont know whether i should move on. :( no one made me cry so hard except u... entertaining!!!:) Wednesday, 9 December 2009 so stupid of me, to think that u actually love me. giving u so many chances, yet each and everytime u hurt me more and more. i cant ignore your cold treatment. its so hard. i told things would work out better as time passes. im so wrong. all the msg u sent, i dont know which to believe. sometimes u say u love me, sometimes u want me out of ur life. tell me straight in my face which is the truth. i dont want to be toyed by u again. and each and everytime, im the one who always apologise for even things i didnt do. come to think if it, u were playing with my feelings all along. how very stupid of me to not notice it. but things are diff when i see u. u are like a whole new person. u cared alot for me. im utterly confuse. i wanna hold u close, i wanna hear u say those words again. did u actually mean it when u gave me that gift??? sigh... |
♥NAME Mirabel God's child 10 nov i dont think u needa know my school or my age loves dance and volleyball people change but pictures holds on memories that would last forever praying for revival in our lives, in our schools, and in the world! for friends like ivy, jiahui, caroline, shuying to know Jesus. overcome my shyness, and be less emotional and sensitive. to set as an good example for others overcome my addiction. can get into SAJC. L1R5:9(pls lord). to get my grade8 in piano. get a guitar. get into Lasalle. have a chance to dance internationally. pleading with God that he would stop my hair from dropping. Shuying! Catherine! Adelle! Francine! IVY! Keith! Eunice! Luna! Deborah! Zihui! Dayna! Yin Anne! Miracle! Yonghui! Vanessa! Minsi! 2E1! MsLau! Jinyee! Evelyn! Gek Choo! Claudia! Germaine! Kang Wei! Ben! Shumin! Wynne! Kelly! WenQi! Charlene! Jingling! Gabriel! October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 Designer : Chili. YANRONG. x o x o Background (Edited) |